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Books: All Unquiet Things

The Opposite of Hallelujah (October 2012)

Tandem (Fall 2013)

 

Tandem excerpt, for funsies

It was almost midnight. The Castle was quiet, but through the open windows she could hear the breeze rustling the leaves and flowers in the garden below her bedroom terrace; the smell of roses and lilacs rushed inside upon those same soft winds and wrapped itself around her neck like a scarf. Up in the sky, the aurora danced; the incandescent whorls of green-blue light usually lifted her spirits, but tonight they gave her a melancholy feeling. For days she’d been on high alert for ill omens, signs of impending disaster, something that would tell her definitively that she was making the wrong choice, heading down an unsafe path. She wasn’t normally so superstitious, but anxiety buzzed beneath her skin like a fly trapped against a pane of glass, and she wondered if, maybe, the universe might intervene in some unforeseen way on her behalf and make everything clear, for once. But here she was, in the eleventh hour, and no clarity had come. She was truly on her own, with nothing and no one to guide her. The door was closing on her fate.

Short TANDEM excerpt, in honor of my editor accepting it for publication (!!!)

He had entered this universe through a door that wasn’t there. No one saw him do it; night had fallen several hours ago, and the small, quiet stretch of South Kenwood that ran along Bixler Park was empty. His entry was undisturbed; only a small tremor that rattled the swings on the playground even signified that he’d arrived at all. He’d taken up his position behind the thick trunk of an oak tree and waited for his analog to appear. He didn’t have to wait long. At nine forty nine PM, Grant Davis left a restaurant on 57th Street with a small group of friend, three guys dressed in hooded sweatshirts and jeans. Thomas watched as Grant said goodbye to them and separated from the group. He shoved his hands into his pockets and half-jogged across the street. He was on his way.

In all the hubbub around finishing up my first pass pages for The Opposite of Hallelujah and also the fifth (!!) draft ofTandem, I forgot to take a picture of theHallelujah galley. It ain’t fancy, but it’s mine.

In all the hubbub around finishing up my first pass pages for The Opposite of Hallelujah and also the fifth (!!) draft ofTandem, I forgot to take a picture of theHallelujah galley. It ain’t fancy, but it’s mine.

I was starting to understand what my dad meant about people you’re not supposed to see up close. I hadn’t been to church in a while, but in my head a priest was a guy in a fancy robe pacing the floor in front of the altar, giving a sermon—performing, basically. Sitting this close, in my own family room, was like, I don’t know, pulling back the curtain and discovering that the Wizard of Oz was just a man like all other men. It felt like cheating. It felt like finding out how the trick was done.

The Opposite of Hallelujah

Not sure why, but I’ve always liked both the cadence and the content of this particular passage ofHallelujah. I think it gives a real sense of how distanced Caro is from the religion of her youth, how bewildered she is by it, and how reluctant to confront it she is, which explains a lot of how she deals with Hannah when she comes home.

Forgive me for quoting myself, but first pass pages are moving slowly, mostly because this part of the process bores me to tears, and I’m really looking for any excuse to avoid them, hence Tumblr.

things my first pass pages are teaching me

I’m doing the first pass pages for The Opposite of Hallelujah right now, and they’re surprisingly clean (not a lot of notes from the copy editor/my editor), but every once in a while there’s an interesting little thing I never knew. Like it turns out that this

Finally,
Mom would open the door, or if Hanna had locked it,
she would threaten to have my dad take it off the hinges,
which usually got Hannah’s attention.

is called a “punctuation ladder”, which the copy editor noted needs to be fixed. (The text won’t really look weird like that in the book, I’m just right-justifying to show you how the commas stack on top of each other, forming the “ladder”.)

uchicagoadmissions:

Did you know?
Since 2007 UChicago researchers have used the South Pole Telescope in their attempt to help solve the cosmological mystery of dark energy. Little is known about this force, other than that it works against gravity and appears to have sped up the expansion of the universe. (Photo by Keith Vanderline)

Relevant to my current manuscript in three ways.

uchicagoadmissions:

Did you know?

Since 2007 UChicago researchers have used the South Pole Telescope in their attempt to help solve the cosmological mystery of dark energy. Little is known about this force, other than that it works against gravity and appears to have sped up the expansion of the universe. (Photo by Keith Vanderline)

Relevant to my current manuscript in three ways.

Don’t believe for one second that you can’t be a certain sort of person only because you were not such a person in the past. Being good is a daily choice; just because you were honorable before doesn’t mean you can’t betray the people you love, but also, just because you betrayed the people you love today doesn’t mean you can’t redeem yourself tomorrow. The past doesn’t disappear, but it doesn’t have to define your future. That’s up to you.

The Opposite of Hallelujah

I’m just sort of paging through the Hallelujah galley sitting on my desk and this quote stood out to me. Presented without comment, just wanted to share.

So this just happened. (Compared to last time; word count substantially higher, dear God in heaven.) This is the fifth time I’ve revised TANDEM in a year, and it has been, BY FAR, the most grueling draft. It’s not even really accurate to call it a revision; there’s some stuff I grabbed from the previous draft, but for the most part this is a rewrite. I’m surprised that it only took me a month to do it (I date all of my drafts from the first day that I start them; this one is 02.08.12), because it feels like a crap-zillion years have passed, most of them spent in a sort of wandering agony. Don’t let people tell you writing isn’t hard, because it IS.
However, I believe that this time I’ve gotten it right. Not all right, of course, because you can’t do it all right in one go, but I feel as though I’ve found the right structure and the right plot and the right voice, which is a huge achievement, considering those three things are what I struggled with most. (You’re probably like, isn’t that basically everything? Yeah, it is.) I’m feeling pretty proud of that.
And now I rest. Good night.

So this just happened. (Compared to last time; word count substantially higher, dear God in heaven.) This is the fifth time I’ve revised TANDEM in a year, and it has been, BY FAR, the most grueling draft. It’s not even really accurate to call it a revision; there’s some stuff I grabbed from the previous draft, but for the most part this is a rewrite. I’m surprised that it only took me a month to do it (I date all of my drafts from the first day that I start them; this one is 02.08.12), because it feels like a crap-zillion years have passed, most of them spent in a sort of wandering agony. Don’t let people tell you writing isn’t hard, because it IS.

However, I believe that this time I’ve gotten it right. Not all right, of course, because you can’t do it all right in one go, but I feel as though I’ve found the right structure and the right plot and the right voice, which is a huge achievement, considering those three things are what I struggled with most. (You’re probably like, isn’t that basically everything? Yeah, it is.) I’m feeling pretty proud of that.

And now I rest. Good night.